Ugh.
The Duke Chaplain had to get me a tissue. 🙁
Baby Tarvaris became an angel today. I met him after he left this world for better places. He never had a chance, was born brain-dead when his mom was in a horrific traffic accident and was thrown from her car. She herself is still recovering with a significant leg injury and was just, literally, discharged herself.
I decided tonight, to bring my fuzzy white blanket. I wasn’t sure how I could use it, but I wrapped him up and as I did, I heard Mom, Grandma, Aunt and Chaplin all gush in awe at the little angel baby floating on a cloud.
That’s when I lost it. Just couldn’t hold in the tears. Of course, I can’t shoot if I can’t see, so I had to take a few deep breaths and start over. I tried to joke it off and the family laughed with me, but as I couldn’t just wipe away the tears, they decided I *needed* a tissue and got me one. 😆 I laugh at myself now, but at the time it was incredibly sweet.
These shoots are the easiest possible shoots — no one is moving. But the hardest to prepare for; to shoot and to finish.
They are also some of the most meaningful to me… because it’s a God given talent and I’m using it to His benefit … and will continue to do so no matter the number of tears. No matter the number I shed, these families have shed 1000s more.